Every now and again God gets my attention through a normal every day movie. A few years ago I saw Amadeus when it was re-released.
At the time a friend had hurt me deeply and I struggled with my emotions. My Christian faith told me I needed to forgive this person and I certainly tried. Every time I got a negative emotion I bottled it down.
I “Christianized” the situation.
If anyone asked me about this person I would not talk about them negatively. I put on a plastic halo and said we had lost touch. What a hypocrite!
I settled down to enjoy the movie. It was well acted and the villain of the movie was the “Court Composer” A mediocre musician, he systematically plotted to destroy Mozart. Formerly very religious, he turned against Jesus as he railed and cried about God giving such talent to a spoilt dissolute boy.
The movie did not end happily either for Mozart or the Court Composer. Mozart died an impoverished death and the Court Composer ended up half mad in an asylum.
This time I found myself identifying with the dastardly Court Composer. Not in the details. I was just so angry. In the Court Composers hatred of Mozart I realized how much I hated this person who had hurt me.
Stuff Christian love. I hated them.
By admitting that hatred to God it was the beginning of forgiveness.
I have never had to deal with that person since but now I am at peace with the situation.
I purchased a cheap video called Anger Management the other day. Meant to be a comedy, but it really pressed my buttons (and made me laugh).
In Anger Management Adam Sandler plays a mild mannered walk-over who is polite to the extreme. On a flight Adam is being his normal calm polite self when he asks the air hostess to serve him a drink. When she ignores him he politely asks again and within a few minutes Adam is arrested mid flight for air rage.
In the whole sequence Adam does absolutely nothing wrong but is treated like a dangerous criminal. Bewildered he ends up in Court and through a series of unfortunate events ends up in Anger management with 3 years of jail hanging over his head. To add to his woes he is put in the care of a crazy psychologist (Jack Nicholson) who does have some behavioural issues.
Thankfully this time, when the movie rang alarm bells, I identified with Adam not Jack.
But it got me thinking. Like all of us at times I don’t feel listened to, or even heard. 2011 was a year that this happened more than most years. I was in a situation where I felt ignored, I was allowed to speak but nobody really was interested in what I had to say.
Like Adam I felt that events were out of my control.
Very frustrating but life happens and I have moved on.
Which brings me to being liked? We all like to be liked and listened to but what happens when your viewpoint is not flavour of the month?
In whom does your trust lie becomes a very real question.
While I hurt like hell last year, somehow, deep down, I know that God is with me.
God has listened to me. He loves me and he does not leave me. He does not leave you either.
Whether you are right or wrong God is in control and ultimately he knows how things will pan out.
Verse to Ponder
I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world. John 16:33 (NIV)
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